Monday, December 31, 2012

Day 11 - A Grace Place

"Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."  Hebrews 4"16

Thought for the Day:  God is asking me to go to a new place - a place of grace!

I remember the time in my life when my heart learned what brain knew...God's grace!  I wanted to plaster it on Facebook, "Why had no ever taught me this about God's grace?"  Sure I had heard the word used & I sung about it in the church choir.  To realize how merciful & gracious He is, well as much as my feeble mind is about to understand His mercy & grace.  It makes me sad when people talk about not being good enough yet for God, or they have made too many mistakes or even legalistic views telling other believers that they have ruined their testimony & God can't use them now.  SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?  No one is good enough that's what makes His grace so amazing!  He loves us even though, He knows our every word BEFORE we speak it, He knows our every action, our every motive, our every thought.  AND He loves us ANYWAYS!  How amazing is that!  Also, He is gracious to forgive us when we sin, His grace does not stop at salvation!

"Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, 
that saved a wretch like me.  
I once was lost, but now I see; 
was blind, but now I see.
T'was grace that taught my heart to fear.
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear,
the hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils & snares,
we have already come.
T'was grace that brought us safe thus far,
and grace will lead us home.
The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures.
He will my shield and portion be,
as long as life endures.
When we've been here ten thousand years, 
bright shining as the sun.
We've no less days to sing God's praise,
then when we've first begun.
Amazing grace, how sweet the sound,
that saved a wretch like me.
I once was blind, but now I see'
was blind but now I see."

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Day 10 - Why Do We Crave

"Do not love this world nor the things it offers you...for the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions.  These are not from the Father, but are from this world." 1 John 2:15-16 (NLT)

Thought for the Day: While Eve focused on the object of her temptations, Jesus kept His focus on God's truth.  What matters most to me? - Made to Crave Devotional

As we grow in our relationship with God, we long to know more about Him, to be in communication with Him & to be closer to Him.  This is why we crave.  However Satan wants to take a good thing God has given us & taint it.  So instead of craving God, we crave food & sex & material items & recognition.  Lysa asked  a tough, but smart question, "When we face our own cravings, will we be like Eve, focusing on our object of desire?  Or will we be like Jesus, pausing, reciting truth, and remembering what matters most?"  I hurt just reading that, because instances where I didn't pause & think it through.  Instead I did what I thought I wanted only to have to pay the consequences later...YUCK!  Yes, "yuck!" is my very mature response.  I so want to be the woman of God, He wants me to be!  I will be honest I know some Scripture, but I have not put in the work of memorizing verses.  This is something I am going to implement ASAP, so that when I'm warring with my flesh I can speak His Truth!


Saturday, December 29, 2012

Day 9 - Compromise vs. Promise

Today's posting regarding the Made to Crave Devotional is a little delayed because I overslept & raced over to my brother's house to let his dog out & feed her....thankfully there were no messes to clean up!!!!

"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that [you] may have life, and have it to the full."  John 10:10

Thought for the Day:  What happens when you take the "com" off of compromise?  You are left with a promise.  A promise you are meant to live.

compromise:

  1. to expose or make vulnerable
  2. to make an unfavorable concession or indulgence
  3. to weaken
How many times have I compromised for a moment of pleasure & later had to deal with the regret???  It isn't fun to think about, but if I am going to be successful I need to examine my failures.

Friday, December 28, 2012

High to the Five Friday is HERE!!!!

Hello Everyone...I just realized that this is my last High Five Friday of 2012!

1.  On Monday my birthday boots arrived!!!!!  A friend had given me birthday money with specific instructions, that I had to spend it on a want.  Well I got on to DSW's website & I had $20 in coupons that I hadn't used so I ordered these boots :)  Now I know you are thinking, Mary your birthday was in October...they sent the wrong color so I had to mail them back...

2.  My dresser has finally been completed!

3.  I know this is silly, but I'm super excited to say that I have lost 14% of my goal.  I've been working on being a healthier me & of course it isn't just about the number on the scale.  But I'm excited nonetheless ;)

****I wanted to get the fun silly ones out of the way to make way for #4 & #5****

4.  I am grateful for my Lord & Savior Jesus Christ!  The celebration of His birth has been so very precious to me this year.  Focusing on that has lessened the pain of missing my parents during a time of year when everyone is talking about celebrating with their family & continuing family traditions.  On Christmas Eve night, my younger brother, aunt, cousin & her husband had dinner while "A Christmas Story" played in the background.  It was just tough.  The Lord has graciously provided encouragement, love & laughter through some amazing people he has placed in my life:
  • A sweet sister surprised me on Christmas eve with a sparkly "M"
  • I was able to enjoy dinner with a dear family that entered my life this year.  
  • I was able to spend sometime on Christmas & Thursday with the Smiths, I love this family more than words can say. 
  • A new friendship has sprouted this week.
  • I had the pleasure of experiencing ALBC's "Christmas for Everyone" service with one of my fave Christian brothers & his dad.  This same friend has provided a ton of laughs this week...I had no idea how much I needed them.
  • I have had the pleasure of hosting a couple that I adore this week.
  • I enjoyed coffee today with a sweet sister in Christ.
  • I came home to a note taped on my door, a friend had been in the neighborhood & wanted to say hi. (Being a guy it was taped with blue duct tape...gotta love it!)
"What is man that You take thought of him, and the son of man that You care for him?" Psalm 8:4 NASB

and last but certainly not least #5....
Today I have been smiling in remembrance of my mom, she would've been 53 today.  I had posted a status on Facebook about some of the things she liked.  My brother is his special way reminded of something about her I had forgotten.  Which that led to one dormant memory after another.  God blessed me with parents who were fighters.  They weren't perfect & I may have some stories that other people don't have about their parents.  However I can say that they taught me to fight, to claw if I have to, no matter what  don't let anything defeat you.  God has given me examples of strength, tenacity & perseverance through my parents.  These are qualities that I possess & am excited to see how God uses them through me not only this next year, but the rest of the race.

See y'all next year ;)

Day 8 - Isn't This Just a Small Thing

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.  And to be thankful."  Colossians 3:15

Thought for the Day:  My weight loss goal isn't a number on the scale.  My real weight loss goal is peace.

Today Lysa brought up gluttony as an "acceptable" sin.  How true is that?  Friends and I have talked about this subject before.  Why do we not talk about it?  Would we become super legalistic about food?  Why does the struggle with food have to be such a private battle?  Do we really take food addiction seriously?

To be honest I'm not sure how I would do at a church potluck if someone walked up to me & said, "Sweetie don't you think you should eat some fruit instead of that brownie?"  I think maybe that would hurt me more than any of the comments I have received over the years about my clothes, being single, or my strong personality!

So is our (as a society) struggle with food a small thing?  I'm going to have to say no, it isn't small.

Made to Crave Devotional

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Day 7 - Triggers

Here we are Day 7 of the Made to Crave Devotional:

"I pray that you...grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ...that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:17-19

Thought of the Day: The only way to negate an emotional eating trigger is to match it with truth.

Last night I was talking with some friends about this devo & how I have been intentional about when I eat.  Asking myself am I really hungry or is there something else going on?  What surprised me was it was the husband who admitted to having times of emotional eating, the wife doesn't eat when stressed.  I don't know why I've assumed that this is more of a woman thing than a man thing.  A male example of food as love & support just came to mind, Joe Gargery would give Pip more & more gravy after his wife's verbal attacks on the young orphan in Great Expectations. 

Kind of off course of what I was planning on blogging about...I'm sitting here thinking about my relationship with food and it brought to mind memories of my childhood when I lived with my mom.

  • She would brag about how much I could eat.  Some of the guys that she dated would take me out to eat with them just to see if this little girl could really eat adult portions.  This was one of the ways I was taught that love is performance based...I know now that shouldn't be the case, but that took a long time to learn that lesson.
  • When I was stressed as a teen I wouldn't eat, it was consciously done, and sometimes I would be too busy at work & forget to eat.  I remember a manager pulling me aside & said that he and my co-workers were worried that I was anorexic & they were going to call my dad if I didn't start eating.  I was shocked!
  • When my mom died & dad was driving us out to the funeral we stopped at a truck stop to eat.   I wasn't hungry & he got upset with me about not eating and told me couldn't leave until I ate more of my dinner.  I was 18...lol.  But that became an issue between my dad & I until he died.  He would get suspicious if I wasn't eating & demand that I eat.
  • When my dad died, everyone was like "Eat!" or "Please eat something." or "You need the strength, eat."  The problem was I couldn't, I would take & a bit and my body wouldn't let me swallow.  I literally had to force some food down.  Even then it was a few bites.  The moment I remember being able to eat was after my dad's visitation & my friend was driving me home and I was SO angry, because of family drama.  We stopped at Chick-Fil-A and I was able to eat a whole chicken sandwich.  Which I paid for later (you get what I'm saying).
I guess I've had a bigger issue with food than I originally thought.  Wow, I'm really grateful for this devotional!  I'm going to be turning this over in my head, probably for the rest of the day!

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Day 6 - It's All in The Family

Hello Made to Crave Devotional: Day 6!

"The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children." Romans 8:16

Thought of the Day: We are only one good choice away from being back on the path of perseverance.  But no matter how far off the path or how long we have been on it, God is patient with us and loves us as a dearly beloved child - part of His family.

It amazes me how God puts things together.  Every day I have been reading the Jesus Calling Devotional & the Made to Crave Devotional, today they both supplied several scriptures regarding God's love for us!  I didn't even know how much I need to read those today.  I didn't have to fight food cravings on Christmas & Christmas Eve, as a matter of fact I did really well with food choices, portions & knowing when I was full!!! I did have to combat an ache in my heart & loneliness.  Even as I type this tears are coming to my eyes, because I miss my dad immensely.  On Christmas Eve my aunt wanted to take a couple of pictures & it just didn't feel right without him and my grannie there.  I knew the holidays would be hard this year, but they were harder than I thought they would be.  The funny thing about the loneliness is when that feeling has come on this holiday season I have wanted to retreat & be by myself.  I've had to force myself to get out of bed & get ready & go spend that time with family & friends.

I'm grateful for His love!  This past week I have been praying & asking the Lord for Him to fill the ache in my heart  & that I wouldn't turn to other sources of comfort.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Day 5 - Blessings Ahead

Merry Christmas!  Today is Day 5 of the Made to Crave Devotional:

"You know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  Let perseverance finish its work." James 1:3-4a

Thought of the Day:  Between any trial and the blessing that comes from that trial, there is a pathway I must walk - that pathway is perseverance.

P-e-r-s-e-v-e-r-a-n-c-e.  Mr. Webster defines perseverance: continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failures or opposition.  I want to have the kind of perseverance to continue running the race of following God no matter what opposition I encounter.  I do truly want that, but I sit here smirking at myself & how many times I have tried the quick fix or a short cut.  I'm not talking just about diet & exercise, I can see this approach in many aspects of my life.  YUCK!  I'm grateful that my Heavenly Father is longsuffering & loves me despite Him knowing my every thought, word, action & motivation!

Monday, December 24, 2012

I'm kissing dating goodbye...


UPDATE 2/4/13
So here's what happen..lol...  I was talking with a couple of my mentors about this one year plan & they called me out on what I was really doing.  I know you are asking, "Mary what were you really doing?" Well I'm going to tell you...RUNNING!  Yes I was running.  See I struggle with feeling not good enough & by instituting this one year rule all I was trying to do was protect myself from being put in a situation where I wouldn't feel good enough.  Please continue to pray for me even though I am not on a dating hiatus because I have decided to stop being a chicken!







....for a year!  While baking today, I've been listening to Andy Stanley preach a series on dating, love & sex.  His main question is, "Are you the person, the person you are looking for is looking for?"  Ouch!  Lately I've been reading the book 48 Days to The Work You Love, one of the exercises in the book is to list every job & why you left.  That got me thinking about relationships as well.  What relationships have I participated in and why did they end.  For those of you who don't know me, my brain is constantly going.  One question or thought will lead to the other, and that will lead to another & another & another...I think you get the point!

So with the sermon series, the thinking of past relationships, an ex-boyfriend trying to reconnect with me, reading the book Boundaries in Dating, and a friendship that took a turn it shouldn't have.  I have had a lot on my mind!!!!  Regret, kicking myself for stupid decisions & words & actions, wondering why I seem to have Christian Guy Repellent, and something that two of my friends have said to me recently at separate times, "Is there something in these relationships that you are attracted to?"   At first I was like...No!  Why would I be attracted to drama, needy, and just down right exhausting relationships???? Why, who would do that???  Well the more I have thought about it I still don't have an answer, but what if they are right?

Pastor Andy Stanley suggests taking a year off of dating to work on being the person, the person I'm looking for is looking for.  One of the authors of Boundaries in Dating said that singles should look at a potential partner and think is this person worth giving up my amazing single life for?  I must say that I do enjoy my life, I have a great community of friends & I'm not sitting around all the time crying out to God, "Why am I single?!?!?"  I'm not downing pints & pints of ice cream watching chick flicks, feeling pathetic because I'm single. Sure, I do occasionally have moments of loneliness, but for the most part I'm good.  I do know that there are some areas in my life that need some work.  I've had to come face to face with some bad decisions I have made & I don't want to do those things again.  It is true that my sin & actions don't just affect me, they affect others...including my future husband!  Yuck!!!  Has God forgiven me YES!  However that doesn't get me out of dealing with the aftermath.

Please pray for me during this next year:

  • That God will show me the areas I need to work on.
  • That I won't allow a friendship to look like dating while trying to operate under the "friendship" umbrella.
  • That I will have the strength to last a year.
  • That I will learn to turn to God for comfort first!
Thank you so much for your assistance over this next year!!! To be honest I'm a little nervous to see what scenarios I will encounter!

Day 4 - Consider It

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds." James 1:2

Thought of the Day: Triumph in this choice will produce a blessing.

Today she pointed out that in today's verse we may not feel great joy in the middle of trials, but "we have to consider it."  It is a choice...period.  I will be honest in the middle of trials big or small I'm not always considering the joy.  I'm thinking what have I done to put myself in this situation?  What is God teaching me? How do I keep from get in this situation again?  How long will this last?  I do take comfort that whatever my trial or situation is, God wasn't surprised and He has a plan.  Good, better, best keeps running through my head!!!!  I want to have the self - control to make the better, best choice in any trial, not just with food.

Today's Prayer: Dear Lord, please help me when I feel tempted today.  Triumph in the this trial matters to me, and I desire to persevere with Your guidance.  Help me to consider the joy and choose the better option.  In Jesus' name. Amen.

Made to Crave Devotional

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Day 3 - The Right Questions

So today is number 3 in the Made to Crave Devotional, and it is a doozy.

"Peter and the other apostles replied: 'We must obey God rather than human beings!" Acts 5:29

Thought of the Day: I must obey God rather than the scale!

Today's timing couldn't be better because today was the day I was planning on buying a scale.  I'm still going to do that possibly tomorrow, if I'm daring enough to go out shopping on Christmas Eve.  After reading today's pages, I have been given a healthier perspective.  Yes the scale can give me an idea of how much weight I have lost, but it doesn't give me value.

Lysa shared some questions that she found on Karen Ehman's Blog:

  • Did I overeat this week on any day?
  • Did I move more and exercise regularly?
  • Did I eat in secret or out of anger or frustration?
  • Did I feel that, at any time, I ran to food instead of to God?
  • Before I hopped on the scale, did I think I'd had a successful week?
Thank you Karen!

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Day 2 - What if I let God down?

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

In today's devotional she brought up that we can't separate the spiritual & the physical.  This is a truth that I know in my head, but it hasn't made it's way to my heart.  But it makes so much sense!  What I do to my body affects me spiritually and how I am spiritually affects me physically.  I am an image bearer of God & my body is His temple.  I need to keep these truths at the forefront of my mind!  I know that if these are my motivations & not just I want to fit into that dress again, then a healthier lifestyle can be a long lasting constant in my life.

A reader had written to her fearful that she could let God down.  At first I was scoffing at it, but then I realized I have that fear too.  Instead of using the words let down, I use disappointment & failure.  I am so very grateful that He loves us no matter what & forgives us & continues to give us chance after chance!!!

Friday, December 21, 2012

High Five Friday!

Hola Friday!  I'm linking up with Lauren for High Five Friday.  First a question, has your Facebook newsfeed caused you to sing R.E.M. all day??? No, just me...figures ;)

1.  Sunday night my church had a mortgage burning service, which was pretty groovy.  They gave an invitation for testimonies & I gave one.  It didn't seem so intimidating until the mic was in my hand and I was looking into a couple hundred faces!!!  I'm grateful and glad to say that God provided the words & none of my jokes got me in trouble...bonus!  Seriously though I serve an awesome God!

2.  A friend asked me to hang out & watch Fast Five...I love this series!!!  Every time I watch any Fast & Furious movie, it makes me wish I raced cars.  However the fact that my cars tend to attract other cars, makes me racing a very bad idea :(

3.  Look what UPS brought me!!!

4.  The Lord used a long car ride this week to speak some truth into my life!  I didn't want to go where I had to go.  I was annoyed that it was going to take soooooooooo long.  But no God had a purpose for that drive far beyond my physical destination!!!

5.  S.A.L.T. Movie Night @ my house!  We watched The Bourne Legacy, which was good, but I enjoyed the talking & hanging out before & after the movie best :D  They are a fun group!

Well that's all she wrote kids...good night!

Day 1 - Unsettle Me

The end of 2012 is quickly approaching & with that comes reflection of what I did with that time.  I see where I could have done more, grown more, read more, served more, pushed harder & of course could have wrangled my tongue more.  This year has brought quite a bit of loss, with the passing of my father.  That brings questions, would he be proud of my choices?  How would he have advised me to have handled this situation & that situation?  2012 has been a tough year & looking on the other side of it I see how the Lord has strengthened me through it.  However He has also shown some BRIGHT light on some areas of my life that need to be taken care of.

I'm the type that wants to fix everything at once, so I take on too much and quit shortly afterwards.  Albert Einstein, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result."  Guilty!  I have decided to get off the insanity merry-go-round and try a different approach.

There have been some situations/relationships that God has convicted me about, that need to end/change.  I have severed one & am working on changing the other.  Of course I can't do that by myself (I have lone ranger tendencies), so I pray for help & guidance & healing and I have some sweet sisters that are holding me accountable as well.  Boundaries, this homegirl needs to not only create boundaries, but adhere to them!

Another area that God has shown me I need work in is the area of comfort as in, where do I turn for comfort instead of to Him?  One major place is food.  This is actually tricky because I'm not addicted to food & I'm not binging & purging, but there are times when I eat my feelings. No Buenos!  I want to be healthier & I want to be able to eat one brownie without wanting to eat twelve ;)

As I embark on this journey I have decided to start off with the Made to Crave Devotional 60 Days to craving God. Not Food.  I have also picked up the book as well, and I'm excited to get this started.  I'm using this blog as a way to keep me accountable for staying on track.

Day 1 - Unsettled

"Thought of the Day: Unsettle me in the best kind of way.  For when I allow Your touch to reach the deepest parts of me - dark and dingy and hidden away too long - suddenly, a fresh wind of life twists and twirls and dances through my soul."

I want to be unsettled, because I want to be the woman God wants me to be!  The "distractions or destructions" have to stop pulling my focus away from my Heavenly Father.  He loves us so much, that we can't comprehend it!  That is exciting & I am tired of living a safe existence insulated by fear & insecurity. Period.

Friday, December 14, 2012

High Five Friday!

I hope y'all are doing well!  I cannot believe that it is December 14th!!!!  
Okay with that said let's get started:

1.  Monday I FINALLY was able to spend some time with my girl Lacy!  I love this sweet friend of mine dearly.  We drank coffee at Broadway Cafe, surprised a friend & enjoyed some yummy lunch at Blanc.

2.  We started the Radical Bible Study by David Platt on Tuesday night.  I enjoyed the discussion that the questions stirred up.  I'm intrigued & excited to see how the next 5 weeks go.

3.  My December Birchbox arrived!!!!  I can't wait to try the olive eyeliner...

4.  Thursday night I had the privilege of celebrating Christmas with my buddies Chris & Ross.  Ross made us a yummy dinner, we exchanged gifts & watched Elf!!!  The boys did good let me tell you, because I have been longing for one of these for months...

They may have enjoyed my gift (Nerf guns) to them just a little bit ;)

5.  My Discipleship partner & I finally were able to meet!!! With the craziness of our schedules & it being the holidays, I was concerned we wouldn't meet again till next year...LOL!  Also tonight some of us got together & played Apples to Apples (one of few board games I actually enjoy) and Battle of the Sexes which gave me the opportunity to demonstrate my lack of Charades skills...

I hope you have a great weekend!!!


Friday, November 30, 2012

High to the Five Friday!!!

Hello Friday!!!  Let's do this ;)

1.  After many detours I made it home!!!!  I was so excited to finally make it west of the Mississippi I took a picture!!!

2.  BSF Launch Party!!!  So I am super duper excited that BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) is launching a young adults (18-35) class.  I have quite a few friends who have raved about BSF for years.  They have encouraged me to join the women's classes, but every time it was brought up I had a commitment that didn't allow for it.  I am soooooooo happy that I can join this class :)

3.  I have some Christmas projects on the horizon; soon I will be posting photos of my Christmas decor...
(Thank you Pinterest & thrift stores!!)

4.  This week I am extra grateful for Chipotle!!!!
I get the burrito bowl w/brown rice, black beans, onions & peppers, steak, mild, medium & hot salsa & guacamole....yummy!

5.  A friend gave me a Sunbeam Heated Plush Electric Throw!!!  I love it!!! It is soooooooo soft :)  If you don't have one, get one!
 (Okay so that isn't me in the picture, but it was too hard to stay cuddled up in the blanket & take my picture!)

Friday, November 23, 2012

High Five Friday from Philly!

Happy day after Thanksgiving day to you & yours :)  Let's get started....

1.  I drove to Philly to see my family!!!  I love them so much!!!

2. I met my nephew Ryder!!!!
Side note: Ryder makes #4, that is right my sister in law Monica, wrangles 4 little ones!!!  I have a hard enough time wrangling myself ;)

3.  I was given the opportunity to be both manicurist & pedicurist to my lovely nieces Hazel & Jade.


4.  I was able to celebrate Thanksgiving with my brothers, sister in law, nieces & nephews!!! (Sadly I didn't take a picture of my Maxfield)

5.  Today I got to "shadow" my older brother Joe at his job.  He works for an awesome catering company & today's wedding was at an incredible venue that I wouldn't have had an opportunity to see any other way. I really enjoyed getting to see my brother in his element :)



Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving!



Habakkuk 3:17-18 (ESV), "Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my of my salvation."

I know that Facebook news feeds have been overrun with thankful statuses, and I did manage to make one of my own...notice I said one.  I have been a slacker in that department.  It isn't because I have nothing to be thankful for or because I am too cool school.  October & November have been a tad rough with the absence of my dad.  My 30th birthday was celebrated with an 80's themed birthday party & it was a ton of fun, filled with friends, food, laughter & lots of hairspray ;)  But it was bittersweet because this was my first birthday without a funny card from my dad signed "Love Dad."

As I type this I am in Philly awaiting my younger brother's arrival so that we can celebrate the holiday with our older brother, his wife & their kids.  I'm very thankful to be spending time with all of them & I know the food will rock the house (older bro is a chef!)!  I love them all dearly, I truly do, but he isn't here.

I have sadly returned to some old comforts to try to dull the pain of his absence.  I am grateful that they haven't been detrimental, but they haven't been righteous.  I have turned to things & people instead of the God of my salvation.  The Lord has dealt so mercifully with me this year & without His love, provision & protection, this year would have been unbearable.  I am eternally grateful that His love is bigger than the ocean & that He rains it upon us.  He has provided me with an amazing community of people who love me & want to be there for me.  However I struggle with isolating myself in order to self protect.  I wonder if this is a behavior I will always struggle with.  I hope not...yuck!  I am also very much grateful that I serve a loving & forgiving God!!

So this Thanksgiving holiday I am thankful for my Lord & Savior; my family; my friends; safe travel; and gravy ;)

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Friday, November 16, 2012

HiGh FiVe FrIdAy!!!

Hello Friday!!!  I am linking up as usual with Lauren for High to the Five Friday :)

1.  Saturday some wonderful friends came to my aide!  Joe & Chris built the wall of Jericho in my basement; Joe & Ross finished up & trimmed my sliding glass door (them with a nail gun...scary); Chris & Philip took on the monumental task of my lawn care; Kerri & Bethany laid the ground work of the beginning stages of organizing my life; and the guys used their muscles to move some furniture downstairs!  I don't have the words to say how grateful I am!

2.  My November Birchbox arrived!!!!

3.  I love the book of Ruth & am super excited to get my hands on....
Listen to Liz Curtis Higgs doing her Righteous Ruth Rap....LOL!!!


4.  I got to experience "A Christmas Gathering" at Kearney FBC.  A friend invited me  & I was game :)  It was night of dessert, Christmas season tips & advice, music AND gifts!  It was fun to see how excited the ladies were when it was time for a drawing :)  This sweet lady next to me won the first drawing & she was so excited that she got lost on her way back to her seat.  It was just a super fun night :)

5.  Today, I'm grateful for people that God has placed in my life to speak truth into my life.  I needed a reminder not to focus too much on the short game & keep my eye on the long game.  

Saturday, October 20, 2012

31 Days of Rocktober, Post #4

October 17 - Flex
Ummmmm no thank you. I know, I know I'm a party pooper!!!

October 18 - Favorite Cookbook/Recipe Website
I love the Biblical Homemaking Blog!!!  She has great recipes & so much more!

October 19 - Plyometrics
I goolged this & I still don't have answer.

October 20 - Favorite Fitness Tip
"Don't let one bad day kill your confidence & progress!

The Last High Five Friday of my Twenties!

I'm linking up with Lauren for High Five Friday...

1.  A dear friend sent me roses to work with a card saying she was praying for me.  I love fresh flowers & this gift was such a sweet surprise!!!  I kept them at the office so I could enjoy them & have a visual reminder that someone was praying for me.

2.  Tuesday night was Book Club!!!!  I love these girls :)

3.  My Community Group got together & donated food to a family that had moved back to the U.S. from China.  They are such a generous, willing to help group and I'm thankful for them.

4.  Thursday night I went to the thrift store in search of my 80's outfit for my birthday party; and I walked out with part of an 80's outfit, 2 denim skirts, & 2 dresses!!!  I'm super stoked about my fashion finds :)

5.  This week I have been humbled by the kindness & love of my friends.  God has answered my prayers for community more abundantly than I could ever imagine!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

31 Days of Roctober Catch Up!

Oh my word have I been slacking on posting for Rocktober, well the slacking ends today!! (Okay I know it is evening, but you are getting my point.) ANYWAYS here we go:

October 6 - Your Calendar With Workouts Scheduled
This one I can't do because my health varies so much from day to day.  But if I am able I want to be working it out!

October 7 - Favorite Fitness App
Easy....SparkPeople!  They have tons of resources to help a sister out!

October 8 - Healthy Breakfast
I have a cup of coffee with skim milk, honey & cinnamon and I enjoy some yummy oatmeal mixed with pumpkin...love it!

October 9 - 25 push-ups
Check!

October 10 - Fitness Quote That Inspires You
"Pain is weakness leaving the body."  Thank you USMC!!!

October 11 - Favorite Nut/Seed
I in the past use to avoid nuts, except for chunky peanut butter, but now I enjoy pecans & walnuts on my salads :)

October 12 - Where You Workout
I have checked out Zumba at the Roc & yoga at Core Balance Yoga.  Also I enjoy walking.

October 13 - Stretching
Ummm I am not posting a picture of me stretching, but I do do it.

October 14 - Motivation for Working Out
My health.  If my neurologist is correct & this is how my health is going to be long term, than I want to be the healthiest me possible.

October 15 - Healthy Snack
I like apples, carrot sticks w/hummus, dates, pumpkin sauce, & reduced fat popcorn.

October 16 - Favorite Fitness Icon/Inspiration
The truth that our bodies are a temple of the One, True God.


Hopefully I won't have to play catch again!

Friday, October 12, 2012

High to the Five Friday!

I am linking up with Lauren for High Five Friday!

1. Sunday, I (with a couple of partners in crime) surprised my dear friend Kerri for her birthday.  We ate at Pizza Street (one of her fave restaurants) and just had some good old fashion girl talk :)

2.  Monday night's Bible study teacher encouraged us to wear read around our wrists & draw a heart on our had to remind us of Deuteronomy 6:5, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your might."

3.  Tuesday night was jammed back with fun.  I had dinner with my lovely friend Emily; Bible study with my S.A.L.T peeps; and then some of us hung out later and laughed a lot.  I'm heard laughing burns calories, if that is true I can only imagine how much I would weigh if I was a downer debbie...LOL!

4.  My birthday is getting closer & closer!!!! Soon I will be 30, this week I found some great stuff for the party on clearance!!!

5.  When doing High Five Friday I try to pick out 5 positive things that have happened that week.  This last post for my High Five Friday today is bittersweet, bitter b/c my old highschool chap Anan lost his battle with cancer; the sweet part is that he is no longer suffering & he is in heaven with Jesus!  Anan you are dearly missed!
This picture is from our Senior Homecoming Dance in 2000.

Saturday, October 6, 2012

High Five Friday is Fun day!

I am linking up with Lauren for High to the Five Friday.

1.  I love Fall & it has arrived!!!  This week I was able to enjoy a Pumpkin Protein Smoothie from The Smoothie Shop and believe me it was a wonderful, yummy experience :)

2.  My birthday is on the 22nd & look what I received in the mail!!!!

3. Monday was the first night of The Law of Love Bible study on the book of Deuteronomy!!!

4.SHHHH!  I'm working on a birthday surprise for my good friend/office manager & I think it is going to turn out pretty groovy!!!  That is one of my favorite things my mom taught me was an excitement for birthdays & holidays!!!

5.  Friday night I meet with my discipleship partner & this week we were discussing prayer.  A few years ago God used the Bible study, Stepping Up: A Journey Through the Psalms of Ascent to rock my prayer life.    A few years ago I would've never expected any of my friends to jokingly call me a prayer nazi, and I hope this isn't coming off as bragging because this has been all God, but I'm grateful that this is an area in my life that has had some major growth.  I love that we can take anything we are thinking or feeling or struggling with to God!!!  He is our Strength!  He is our Comforter! He is our Protector!  He is our Song!


31 Days of Rocktober

October 5 - Daily Supplement
I take these supplements every day. First I would like to say that yes I take a prenatal mulit-vitamin, but I am NOT pregnant.  My doctor told me that women my age should take a prenatal multi-vitamin even when they aren't pregnant.  Okay now that that is taken care of; I also take the a B-Complex & I take Calcium.  I buy raw vitamins because they are better for the body then synthetic vitamins.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

31 Days - Playing Catch Up

I have been inspired by lovely friend Megan & Sarah Mae's 31 days to a fresh blog.  I am joining in on the fun that is known as Rocktober!

Knowing how smart & with it my friends are, one may be wondering if I am capable of reading a calendar.  Yes I am, thank you for the concern.  I do realize that today is the fourth day of the month, have no fear everything is under control.  I am going to use this post to catch me up and tomorrow will be on track!!!  Yes, my friends, I am more than just a pretty face ;)

Okay HERE we go!!!

October 1 – Athletic shoes
I love these!  Who would've thought I would stray from Nike...not me.

October 2 – Song that pumps you up to workout
I love this song!  You cannot sit still when listening to this song.  I am not naturally a morning person but this song does help me get into early bird mode.

October 3 – Workout partner
Miss Megan maybe in Hawaii but she is still my partner in crime :D


October 4 – Favorite workout DVD/workout equipment
My yoga mat!  The lovely yoga mat bag (I don't know it's official name) was quilted...yes quilted by my super talented friend Janice!  I'm struggle with a competitive nature and in yoga the only person I'm competitive is myself.

Meet you back here tomorrow :)

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Hello Friday (or Saturday since I forgot to post last night)!

As usual I'm linking up with Lauren for High Five Friday :)
Let's do this!

  1. This week I was an extremely lucky girl, Tuesday I ate dinner at the Moffetts house & Thursday I ate dinner at the Totta's house!  Those of you who know the lovely & talented Mrs. Moffett & Mrs. Totta  are probably fighting feelings of jealousy...sorry for that ;)  I always enjoy spending time with these ladies & their families even when food isn't involved.  
  2. Wednesday nights I'm participating in the "Betrothed to Christ" Bible study.  The teacher has studied first century Jewish wedding customs & used that knowledge to help give us a better understanding of what it means to be betrothed to Christ.  This class is rocking my world!!!  It is just super exciting to get an even better idea of what God has in mind for us & how He uses illustrations to help us to better understand :)  Also I'm taking this class with a newish friend Jennifer & I'm enjoying learning and laughing with her.
  3. Who doesn't love clearance?!?!?!  I found a super cute black pillow with some groovy detailing for $6 at Target!  Love it!
  4. I was able to finally attend my community group's Bible study this week & so very grateful that my schedule allowed for it.  There were quite a few Scripture references and I have to tell you I love hearing His Word read aloud by different voices in different translations....just love it!
  5. Zumba!!!!  Okay so I decided to check out a Zumba class and it kicked my backside...LOL!  Disclaimer: I do have some physical limitations due to a car accident I was in & so I got to class early to discuss them with the teacher and there was one part of the class I had to stand on the sidelines for & some of the other movements I had to modify.  But other then fighting with my pride about my inability to do the whole class, it was great!  
Well kids that is all I have for you at this time.  Have a great weekend & don't do anything I wouldn't do ;)

Friday, September 14, 2012

High Five Friday

I'm linking up with Lauren for High Five Friday!


  1. These past couple of weeks has felt like an episode of This Is Your Life!  A classmate is fighting Leukemia and that has been the catalyst for high school re-connections.  They all have aged so well!
  2. Tuesday night I enjoyed dinner with a fabulous family that I love.  I did sadly miscalculated the time & missed book club :(
  3. My hair is a fantastic dark brown with pops of red...I LOVE IT!!!  Rosa did such a great job :)
  4. Started a Bible study that takes a more in depth look into our relationship with Christ, as His betrothed.
  5. Discipleship 1 with Lauren @ Starbucks...I know you're jealous ;)


Sorry no pictures this week, have a safe & happy fall weekend!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

High Five Funday (Friday) :)

I can't believe High Five Friday is already here!  I'm linking up with Lauren from From My Grey Desk Blog.


  1. Santa-Cali-Gon!!! That is right some friends & I went on Monday and the only downside was the heat...hot.  We tried fried OREOs, and if you ever have an opportunity to do so, DO IT!  My lovely friend Kerri tried a funnel cake for the first time.  I know I was shocked as well, that she had lived a third of her life without ever trying a funnel cake!  I only spotted 2 mullets so that was kind of disappointing.
  2. Sunday night I was finally able to see my friend's band Maywood perform! Go to their website & listen to their music then buy their CD...you won't regret it...you will thank me for this!
  3. Continuing in the Bible study Cookies on the Lower Shelf, I read the book of Job!  It took part of an evening & part of the afternoon, but I read it all!  If you have read the book of Job then you understand what an accomplishment this is :)
  4. I reconnected with an old friend this week.  John and I have been friends for years, but as with life sometimes you lose touch with some people.  Way to go Facebook for reconnecting people! 
  5. Friday night I met with my girl Lauren for Discipleship & I was super lucky to have dinner with Emily! These ladies are great Christian friends & I feel really lucky to have them as friends.


Well kids I'm off to see what the day has in store, have a great week!

Friday, August 31, 2012

It is High Five Friday Y'all!!!

Happy High Five Friday!

1.  Over the weekend I attended the WHOLE Women's Conference put on by Dirty Girls Ministries; the keynote speak was Lisa Harper...she ROCKED the house!!!  She was authentic, funny & just an all around fantastic speaker.  There was also break out sessions my friend & I took part in on sex trafficking & sexual abuse.  I am grateful that I was able to experience with my sweet friend.  I'm also grateful for the knowledge I acquired & somethings that God brought to light.

2.  I know this may sound silly but I don't go to the movies alot and this week I went twice!! I know I'm getting wild & crazy ;)



I love action movies, good vs evil, kicking butt & taking names.

3.  I was fortunate enough to get to spend a couple of days with a great couple I'm friends with in Holts Summit, Mo.  It was great to hang out, eat bacon & enjoy some yummy Central Dairy Ice Cream (not together, but I may try that next time), my fave flavor is Birthday Cake!  We also visited the town of Arrow Rock, it definitely has it's own interesting rhythm FYI: if you go take cash, they aren't big fans of debit/credit cards.

4.  I started a new Bible study this week, Cookies on the Lower Shelf by Pam Gillaspie.  It covers Genesis - Ruth in 10 weeks!!!  It is a flex study so you can do the minimum or there are additional assignments you can choose to do as well.  So far it has been good I'm through the first 9 chapters of Genesis.

5.  This week I have been able to hang out with 3 different friends at 3 different times.  It has been a great blessing to reconnect & laugh :)  I have some truly great friends!




Friday, August 17, 2012

You Know What Day It Is...High Five Friday!

Happy Friday Y'all! I'm linking up with Lauren from my grey desk.

1.  My nephew Ryder was born on Sunday!!!!  Isn't he ADORABLE!!

2.  Sadly I don't have a picture, but I did get to enjoy lunch with my lovely friend Megan.  She will soon be leaving the Main Land to return to Hawaii.  It was great to spend some one on one time with her.  She is a beautiful friend on the inside & out, and I can always trust her to point me back to Christ.  Megan is a blessing in my life.

3.  My August Birchbox came in the mail!!!  I've already tried the eyeliner :)

4.  Thrift store find....this lamp will look great in my home after it has tlc.

5.  Tonight was a women's activity at church.  It was exciting to see the number of women who should up, and I enjoyed my time with Megan & Alicia!!!

Goodnight Everyone! Catch later :)

Saturday, August 11, 2012

High Five Friday

Jumping in:


 1. On Monday I was able to see some of the extended family & show them the magazine article about Dad.  It was great to share that with people who knew him & would get why somethings in there were SO funny :)

2.  First week of Discipleship!
3.  Thankful for praying friends & their encouragement.  This week has been rough and it has been a blessing to have friends to come along side of me.
4.  I spent some time hanging out with my baby brother while he was cleaning the bike.  It was a fun time talking with David (nothing is ever boring in David's world).  It was also interesting the memories that came back of talking to Dad while he was cleaning or working on the bike.  The funniest memories didn't involve me but this group of little girls who lived next door to us that were obsessed with Dad & his bike.  One day when he was working on bike, they brought out their bicycles & their dad's tools and "worked" on theirs next to him.
5.  I know I already blogged about the chair class, but it was a highlight of the week ;)

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Getting my paint on!


So I signed up for a class at Restoration Emporium (re:) to learn how to restore a vintage chair using Annie Sloan Chalk Paint.  The main reason I signed up is because painting intimidates the dickens out of me.  I know, I know!  But the perfectionist in me and the mocking of a friend after I spray painted a table I found at the thrift store has made me nervous of painting anything.  I saw the class and I was like here we go, I will get some first hand knowledge.

OK so that's the reasoning behind the class, but let me tell you I came super dog daddy close to not going.  To say that today was rough is an understatement, I was grateful that I didn't wear make up today because I probably would've cried it off.  Well the crying intensified my headaches which in turn made me nauseous which in turn made me a very grumpy person when I got home.  I was racking my brain trying to remember the cancellation policy and since I couldn't find any information about it I went.  There was no way I was going to pay for a class and then not go.  Fortunately for me very bad, no good day (which included me splashing some iced coffee on myself as I walking into the store) ended the moment I walked in the door of re:

This store is a wonderland of fun & funky, sweet & chic, vintage wonderment.  Go to this store!  I will implore you once more, go to this store!  I, however, was able to stay on my mission & headed downstairs to the studio.  I was as I feared the last one there, but I was still able to have my choice of chair & I even had a painting station to myself.  I know this may sound like a weird bonus to those who don't know me well but I'm kind of shy & a get the lay of the land kind of girl when it comes to new places & experiences.  The teacher Sheila was FANTABULOUS!!!  She is super nice, witty & genuine.  She took time to answer questions; she encouraged our artistic leanings, & gave suggestions when asked. Sheila also didn't rush us, she encouraged everyone to work at their own pace.  

Here are some things I learned:

  • Ponytail holder, headband, hairpins are a necessity.  I used a pen to hold my hair back because I lacked the mention items.
  • Wear painting clothes.  I know this is obvious but if you were in the grumpy state of mind I was in & just stomped out the house, obvious things aren't so obvious.
  • Don't fret that you won't have enough time to go to the gym after class.  I got a major arm work out waxing the chair & was grateful I was near a fan because I perspired hopefully 2lbs off.
  • Don't be afraid that people are judging you, so you don't take a before picture.  I still can't believe that I was THAT self aware of 10 women I will more than likely never see again.
  • Spindles are the devil.
  • Picking a shade that you might not immediately jump at can turn out pretty rockin.  I picked the Chateau Grey because I wanted something different & am very happy with the finished product.
  • I love Annie Sloan Chalk Paint!!!  Check it out & your painting life will never be the same.  (I understand I'm a painting novice, but there were more experienced painters & they were impressed as well)
  • A dangerous side effect is the creative juices start following & you may want to paint everything
This evening was a blessing to me in so many ways & I'm grateful that my grumpy day didn't keep me at home.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Hello Friday!

High Five Friday!

1.  Book Club!!!  I love getting to hang out with the girls & discuss books, life and what God has been showing everyone and enjoy some yummy snacks as well :)  The Making of a Gentleman by Ruth Axtell Morren was the book up for discussion this month.  I liked the book, it was a quick read, however the main character Mrs. Hathaway did get on my nerves sometimes with her constant nagging.  But other than that I did enjoy her brother Damien and the way the story was wrapped up with a very happy ending :)

2.  Bible Study!!!  I have thoroughly enjoyed studying the book of Nehemiah and am sad that my time with the college girls has come to an end.

3.  I made my first garland with cupcake liners, dolies & coffee filters :)


4.  I was able to have my hair cut & colored this week, and I am seriously digging the dark brown with red peeking out :)  Sorry no pic quite yet.

5.  My Friday night plans didn't go as scheduled due to the following:

I missed stepped & took a tumble.  My ankle & wrist are hurting, but have no fear I will wear this heels again ;)  I wasn't, sadly, able to meet the girls for Girl's Night.  I did have a very enjoyable night hanging out with a couple I love dearly, so Friday hasn't been a total bust :)

Well until next time, you kids behave!

Friday, July 13, 2012

Hello High Five Friday!

#1.  The order from my Brunch & Bags fun time with some ladies came in this week!  Yeah Thirty-One Bags!  I didn't realize until today that I may have a Thirty-One problem....
I do want it to be made known that I didn't buy all these bags at once!  So stop judging me ;)  I am also happy to report that only one of these bags did I pay full price!!!

#2.   I woke up one morning this week missing my dad quite a bit & not really motivated to do anything.  I pushed myself to go the gym & that is where God provided a fun encouragement!!!  Two girls I haven't seen in quite sometime were there & it was a sweet blessing to chat with them for a little bit :)

#3.  Nehemiah Bible Study!!! We are coming to the end & I'm bummed, but at the same time I am enjoying studying this book of the Bible with this group of girls.

#4.  Flip Flops for Africa!  A girl from my Bible study is moving to Africa for 10 months & she is collecting flip flops for the children there.  So we as a group have been asking friends & families for flip flops AND BOY HAVE THEY DELIVERED!!!

#5.  My July Birchbox arrived!!!!  It came with Stila Lip Glaze & I have enjoyed using it :)  I can't wait to use the other items :)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

Daddy's Girl?



Those who know me know that my dad was a biker.  One of my favorite memories is being very young & my daddy coming home from riding and pretending to be my horse & I was Rainbow Brite :)  The smell of leather is a smell I associate with my father.  His motorcycle, in my mind, was so much apart of them that it took everything I had not to start crying when my brothers started his motorcycle up a couple days after his death.  Standing there listening to the melody of the bike was almost too much, because I knew my daddy was gone & he would never ride that bike again.

Learning to ride a motorcycle and one day owning one maybe only a dream when it is all said and done, because of my health.  But if it does become a possibility I will gladly run with it.  The inspiration for finally verbalizing this dream (yes I realize that typing isn't speaking, but you know what I'm saying) was an email I received about Motorcycle Bootcamp.  So when I become debt free & if my doctors are able to help me to be healthy enough, world watch out because this daddy's girl is going for a ride :)

Goals...hmmmmmmmm



So inspired by the lovely Ms Sarah, I have decided to post my weekly goals & give a progress report mid-week.  She has posted goals for the year & a goal for each month....baby steps for me, I will start with weekly & go on from there :)

I'm excited about starting this goal setting project, because I'm looking to be more organized.  Before I relied   on my very sharp memory (before the car accident), but now I'm finding myself having to write things down quite a bit & still having the feeling that I'm forgetting something. I HATE THAT FEELING!  It was so bad that one time I actually posted on Facebook asking if anyone had any idea what I had committed my self to that following Saturday.  Sad I know!

Okay, get this goal party started :)

Personal 

Only hit the snooze button twice (remember baby steps!)
Read Frumps to Pumps daily & do the assignments.
Memorize Psalm 25
Stay on schedule with my Bible reading plan YouVersion.
Remember to take flip flops to Bible study Tuesday

Friends/Family


Not waiting till Thursday to purchase gift for wedding shower that is Thursday night.
Mail two friends a handwritten note/letter
Mail box of items to nieces that I bought for them in FEBRUARY

Health/Fitness

Track food everyday on Spark People
Drink 11 servings of water each day (this is super tough for me, b/c I'm not a big drinker)
Do cardio & yoga dvd four times this week

Financial


Listen to one lesson from Financial Peace, & review workbook pages for lesson
Review Debt Snowball & set up action plan to attack

Home/DIY Projects


Print off cleaning schedule found on Pinterest
Follow cleaning schedule
Go through 2 boxes in garage, deciding what to keep & what to put in garage sale box.






Friday, July 6, 2012

High Five Friday!

Hello to y'all in the bloggersphere :) It is H54F!

1. I drove down Friday night to my friend Janice's home.  I always enjoy visiting with her & her husband, to be honest I really get a kick out of seeing the two of them interact :)  Saturday, we went to Apple Wagon, it is this fantastic store that houses home decor, Fiestaware & an antique mall.  I'm a nerd when it comes to antique stores, because I get intrigued by the history behind the items & the homes the items lived in.  My mission however this visit was the Fiestaware sale 50% off!!!  Janice was very patient with my decision making process.  She is one of those friends that you can have fun with anywhere & am extremely blessed to have her friendship.

2.  Sunday! Sunday! Sunday!  I am grateful for the church God has placed me in & the people that I have I have the privilege to fellowship with.  Sunday evening the church hosted a picnic, followed by baptisms in the lake.  I always get teary eyed when I see families being baptized together.

3.  Tuesday is Bible Study night, we are doing a study by Kelly Minter on Nehemiah.  If you haven't studied this book or the Bible or it has been awhile...study Nehemiah!!!  It amazing to how God will use someone who has a heart that can break for others.

4.  Wednesday was the 4th of July!  I'm not sure if it is because I'm older or more due to recent events but I have become convicted on the lack of effort I have put into studying my country's history.  I have decided to be more purposeful in this area.  My freedom has come at the cost of others' sacrifices the least I can do is to be educated about our history.

5. Last but not least it is Friday & this is the only weekend this month that I don't have anything planned :)

Have a Fantastic Weekend!