Day 1 - Unsettle Me

The end of 2012 is quickly approaching & with that comes reflection of what I did with that time.  I see where I could have done more, grown more, read more, served more, pushed harder & of course could have wrangled my tongue more.  This year has brought quite a bit of loss, with the passing of my father.  That brings questions, would he be proud of my choices?  How would he have advised me to have handled this situation & that situation?  2012 has been a tough year & looking on the other side of it I see how the Lord has strengthened me through it.  However He has also shown some BRIGHT light on some areas of my life that need to be taken care of.

I'm the type that wants to fix everything at once, so I take on too much and quit shortly afterwards.  Albert Einstein, "Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result."  Guilty!  I have decided to get off the insanity merry-go-round and try a different approach.

There have been some situations/relationships that God has convicted me about, that need to end/change.  I have severed one & am working on changing the other.  Of course I can't do that by myself (I have lone ranger tendencies), so I pray for help & guidance & healing and I have some sweet sisters that are holding me accountable as well.  Boundaries, this homegirl needs to not only create boundaries, but adhere to them!

Another area that God has shown me I need work in is the area of comfort as in, where do I turn for comfort instead of to Him?  One major place is food.  This is actually tricky because I'm not addicted to food & I'm not binging & purging, but there are times when I eat my feelings. No Buenos!  I want to be healthier & I want to be able to eat one brownie without wanting to eat twelve ;)

As I embark on this journey I have decided to start off with the Made to Crave Devotional 60 Days to craving God. Not Food.  I have also picked up the book as well, and I'm excited to get this started.  I'm using this blog as a way to keep me accountable for staying on track.

Day 1 - Unsettled

"Thought of the Day: Unsettle me in the best kind of way.  For when I allow Your touch to reach the deepest parts of me - dark and dingy and hidden away too long - suddenly, a fresh wind of life twists and twirls and dances through my soul."

I want to be unsettled, because I want to be the woman God wants me to be!  The "distractions or destructions" have to stop pulling my focus away from my Heavenly Father.  He loves us so much, that we can't comprehend it!  That is exciting & I am tired of living a safe existence insulated by fear & insecurity. Period.